Thursday, December 19, 2019

I have arrived, maybe.

I think maybe yes, I have arrived. spiritually.
I dont care what the world thinks about me!
I dont care if my house is running perfect!
I dont care if I am lonely and dont have anyone to talk to.

yes, I say this and then suddenly, I am reminded that the world I am into is an imbalance.  The person who wants to showcase fake empathy is the person who does not actualize empathize with you. That person is actually wanting to draw attention towards themselves while trying to empathize across. Or is the person like that. Should I be forgiving and be ok with it ?
Is it about the fundamentals of the work friendships not actually be friendships and just acquaintances ? Or is it about being fake friends just because someone is better in the crowd ?
Does everything needs to be struggled into ?

I think just let them be. Move away from it. and get into a smaller world with very less people in it ? be lonely ? But the fake people anyways are no where close by. Then why cry over their absence. It is better to have no one than to have fake friends.

well, it does come to my mind, that i put them in the bucket of acquaintances and do not look for actual relationships from them. And then i want to find out if there has been an actual relation at all ? other than me and my daughter that i am raising. Will she turn around one day ? Should I be expecting her to stay or let it go ?

Let all go. Make no mistake, everyone dies alone.