Friday, January 24, 2020

That urge to compete

I did not like what was becoming of me.
I got into the company of a humble bragger. I am humble (well, most of the times! )
I thought I could be with that person because a few things matched. Being humble, being a people's person, caring for people around. Being considerate enough and being kind. But all that had a very different line to it. It was humility with bragging about it. It was caring with telling the people how the person cared about 1 person or 1 situation to the whole world. Being considerate according the people around and then again bragging about it. Being kind and then telling the whole world that the person was kind and hence needs to be loved for, cared for and needs to be looked into. And hence should receive attention in the form of love and respect.
I found myself do the same. I tried to start bragging. enough to hear myself brag and complain about how my life is great.
Do we need to complain about this ?
I don't know and then when I did have a genuine complain, the reaction was - so what. Well, by doing this and just adding in to the complain, that person made an opinion lead in the beginning. And created opinions about the same.
I realized this and reasoned out to myself. No, I did not like what I was becoming. I limited the contact. Yes, may be I am saving myself from negativity. But then isnt that, what we are supposed to do ? I am glad I did it.