Well, I think I overdid getting ready today.
I wanted to wear a silk saree because its cold & North India allows Silk only during cold. I have very few sarees that may be celebratory or to be worn in Weddings / Diwali. Most of them are daily functional wear. Simple with no metal wire weave in them. Basic, simple cottons.
As far as I remember n know, objectification of women was a taboo in my house due to the communist thoughts and reading by my father. I must say, those communist thoughts of equality & liberty have helped me grow personally & professionally.
But what was missed out was expression of self, as one would want. To dress up. Get ready.
& somehow being simple is the only thing that is and was followed for everyday. That has become the grind anyways. Get up get ready, wear something presentable. wear everyday accessories or jewelry and run to work. Finish the house tasks before and after work. Run, keep running.
Whenever there is a time to go to a wedding me being the driver & also because I give preference to getting my little one ready first, arrange and organize the tiffin, water bottle, extra dress etc. Then somehow do myself and go to the wedding with the bags that I carry for that. No, my kids not a toddler anymore. Yet. Habits. But then, habits. Asking if its ok if I wear this. Is it ok if I do this. Although I know this is simple enough.
We happen to buy the fineries but in our daily worker - life, we are not able to wear them ever. Let alone body-image issues of being an ok size for the photos etc. Well today, selfie may not be great. But I felt beautiful within.
But today, I felt freedom. In dressing up. In wearing what I wanted to wear. Accessories. flowers in my hair and whatever. I felt the freedom to not having to ask anyone's opinion / follow the rules of the family. It felt good. Liberated.
Owing to the daily grind that we or our family go through if we are able to buy the fineries that maybe only the yesteryear select-few could own, we worker class people don't happen to get to use them. And waiting for a special day for your fineries just keeps them in the cupboard I don't until when.
