Yes, i just shifted at least 4 times in the last three years. We changed houses 4 times. We started with some amount of luggage. I was still not a very furniture person. But yes, I do have a lot of books, a lot of small small things with me. Did I have them because I am a hoarder ? NO!!! not at all. its because I needed those things once, kept them well, my daughter reads my first story book as of today. Yes, I know there are so many things that I left behind. there are so many things that have got lost, kept at a place where they belong.
NO, this is not about me having things. It is about shifting them. It is about us needing them. This is about, me wanting buy a 2 seater dining table but being reminded that maybe I will people home, get the bigger table. About our family being complete. About we needing to deal with people at times. About cold. About the need of stuff that we like to be on, be in everything.
But guess what shifting is a night mare. things break. get displaced. get lost, this time get stolen. (someone stole my plant).
All this and the tension that how is this going ot be done. Oh Ok there is professional help for sure. there is ! But it did not run around here. The professional help led into we not being needed to take care of things. The buildings were closeby. I was working - no holiday as such.
Since It was closeby, there was no period of change. All this built a huge anxiety in me.There was no help in sight. I could wait, stop for help. But I had given myself a deadline. so much of anxiety, it led me in breaking down. My neighbor came across to just sit with me and make me feel comfortable.
Why the blog ?
I just read a blog by Nandita Abraham, She is the president Pearl, Yes, for a reason. A very strong woman. She experienced change so many times in her life, and she discusses that as the very reason for her being fearless.
I think I am on the path, through the change, through the struggles, I am reaching a new strong, a new me. Sometimes it comes to my mind, that then I should not compare myself with people not of that strength. Yes. I should not. I should not feel that I should have had that ordinary life of everything going fine. No one does.
NO, this is not about me having things. It is about shifting them. It is about us needing them. This is about, me wanting buy a 2 seater dining table but being reminded that maybe I will people home, get the bigger table. About our family being complete. About we needing to deal with people at times. About cold. About the need of stuff that we like to be on, be in everything.
But guess what shifting is a night mare. things break. get displaced. get lost, this time get stolen. (someone stole my plant).
All this and the tension that how is this going ot be done. Oh Ok there is professional help for sure. there is ! But it did not run around here. The professional help led into we not being needed to take care of things. The buildings were closeby. I was working - no holiday as such.
Since It was closeby, there was no period of change. All this built a huge anxiety in me.There was no help in sight. I could wait, stop for help. But I had given myself a deadline. so much of anxiety, it led me in breaking down. My neighbor came across to just sit with me and make me feel comfortable.
Why the blog ?
I just read a blog by Nandita Abraham, She is the president Pearl, Yes, for a reason. A very strong woman. She experienced change so many times in her life, and she discusses that as the very reason for her being fearless.
I think I am on the path, through the change, through the struggles, I am reaching a new strong, a new me. Sometimes it comes to my mind, that then I should not compare myself with people not of that strength. Yes. I should not. I should not feel that I should have had that ordinary life of everything going fine. No one does.
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